how i envy friends who have close relationships with their parents. the envy i feel is not of a jealous nature, but one that could make me feel like having a fulfilling relationship with my folks would (probably) be the only thing i would regret not achieving in this lifetime. sometimes i anger my parents a tad too much and when i try to compromise and be nice to them, i think about the times in the past when they weren't there for me when i needed them most. yet, they complain that i place too much emphasis on friendship when they themselves fail to provide some sort of comfort at home. i guess the only way to overcome my personal barrier would be to forgive and put the past behind. the only thing is, how do i cultivate better communication between us when so much animosity keeps us apart ever so often?

they say that blood is thicker than water and family comes first.
somehow, i'm beginning to truly believe that things can be better in time to come.

how i envy friends who have close relationships with their parents. the envy i feel is not of a jealous nature, but one that could make me feel like having a fulfilling relationship with my folks would (probably) be the only thing i would regret not achieving in this lifetime. sometimes i anger my parents a tad too much and when i try to compromise and be nice to them, i think about the times in the past when they weren't there for me when i needed them most. yet, they complain that i place too much emphasis on friendship when they themselves fail to provide some sort of comfort at home. i guess the only way to overcome my personal barrier would be to forgive and put the past behind. the only thing is, how do i cultivate better communication between us when so much animosity keeps us apart ever so often?

they say that blood is thicker than water and family comes first.
somehow, i'm beginning to truly believe that things can be better in time to come.