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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
mr500!


the mixed event

the men's event

our boat

paddles up!

SIM dragons!

the lovely ladies

SIM sa!











here are some snapshots taken during mr500!
please visit my photo album or www.simdragons.com for more pictures.
2:26 AM

Monday, March 20, 2006
happier now.

i have come to a conclusion that i am truly unlucky. why do i always seem to like the wrong guy for the right reasons? tsk tsk. but hey, at least i still have my best friend, who stuck with me throughout the last crazy and turbulent 2 years and he is still here for me. unfortunately or fortunately, we are bounded to each other in some strange way! i can't believe how well we know each other despite our obvious differences in personality and mindset. we may not always get along but knowing that you are there for me no matter what really warms my heart and brings a smile to my sullen face. i can truly say that you are my one and only soulmate.

may our time together be well spent. i will miss you during the next one week while you're away.
12:11 AM

Sunday, March 19, 2006
words.

i have a feeling that this would be a long post.

first up is MR500. we were scheduled to meet at 11am at khatib mrt station for lunch before proceeding to yishun stadium for warm up before the race. on the night before, my dearest chairman gavin promptly informed everyone NOT TO BE LATE but instead was late himself. we had a quick lunch and dashed off to lower seletar reservoir for the race. my whole day was spent waiting around for the events to begin, snapping photos of my team members and running around to get a clear view of the race. though we didn't manage to get into the finals, i'm pretty darn sure that everyone in the race team did a very good job! it was great knowing that we broke the previous training timings. there's always room for improvement so let us soar to greater heights!

meeting him today after recieving his email was kinda strange. i felt rather weird initially but i did the right thing by not talking (often) to him throughout the whole day. it would probably be worse if i did because i'd feel like crap at the end of it all. seeing him made me realize how much more i hate being in this state, but it also reminds me of how important it is to move on from there. we are both looking for different things and unlucky as i always seem to be, i was too blinded and too dumb to realize what a fool i was from the very beginning. you led me on and caused me to be mistaken but love is hardly a game where you can win, especially when you (i) end up liking the wrong person for the right reasons. i'm fucking tired of disappointments already and in a way, i hoped that you wouldn't be one. clearly i was so wrong. someone told me that i should hold on and keep trying. but from the way i see it and the things you say to me, i don't think it would be a good idea to do so. it's too bad i'm not what you're looking for but that doesn't make me less of what i am. we are and will be friends, but for now, i can't look you in the eye and truly feel happy at all. i hope you will find what you're looking for. you gave me a sense of hope i haven't felt in such a long time and i'm grateful. but now i have to carry on walking down my path because you took a right turn and exited from it.
2:05 AM

Friday, March 17, 2006
someday.

how the hell'd we wind up like this
why weren't we able to see the signs that we missed
try to turn the tables
i wish you'd unclench your fists and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
but don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as you know that someday i will
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying things we've always needed to say
so we could end up staying
now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as you know that someday i will
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

how the hell'd we wind up like this
why weren't we able to see the signs that we missed
try to turn the tables
now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as you know that someday i will
lsomeday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

someday - nickelback

too sudden, too soon.
someday i will make it right.
just one chance before it's too late.

(can't wait for the showdown this saturday at mr500! do your best SIMdragons!)
12:22 AM

Thursday, March 16, 2006
the show must go on.

you sorted out things for me.. thank you.
but it's something i won't be in a hurry to forget.
i can't.. for now.
1:11 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006
a short post.

all i can say is.. clear my uncertainties please.
it is the least you can do for me now.
11:57 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006
worries.

i just realized that i've been blogging more often than usual this week. and since i don't blog unless i have blog-worthy material to offer (who wants to read about mundane everyday activities), it obviously means that i must be going through a difficult state of confusion, anxiety and minor depression right now. yeah, but then again.. who wants to read about how emo people can get? bleah.

recently, i've been worrying constantly about various things. an old love whom i thought wanted to move on in life without me wants to get back together because he's afraid that he'd lose me for good ever since i told him that i'm interested in someone else. my once emotional solace who could melt my heart has long departed from my life even though you're still standing right before me. so much for liking the wrong guy for the right reasons.. i think it'd be best to let me be an ice queen because it is the most i can be around you. to the one who can so easily bring a smile to my face without even being there at all.. i have a lot of doubts, but i sure hope everything will turn out fine. afterall, how could anyone ever think that a lighter could have sparked the beginning of a "scandal"? it's fascinating really.. haha.

for now, i just want to get through the exam period. *crosses fingers*
1:34 AM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006
unfinished business.

how many times have you told yourself never to take things for granted and regretted the times that you did? haven't we learnt enough by the "hard" way to know when to do the right things? or must we wait till it's too late to realize how much we have lost. sometimes i fail to notice the beauty in the little things around me and the little things people do for me till they're gone for good.

you wanted me to slow down and i did. now you tell me that you want to regret because i did what i thought was best for the friendship. please don't regret or feel bad.. at least we still have each other.. and isn't that what's important? i never did walk out on you.. i just left you alone because you wanted me to.
2:48 AM

Monday, March 06, 2006
emotions.

i was once a very different person who never could cherish what i had till it was too late. when i realized that i had to, and i started treasuring what was dear to me, the people around stopped caring about me and what i did. i tried many a time to hold on to what little was left and hope for the better but all i got in return was more pain, disappointment and frustration. perhaps my heart was stabbed so many times before that the feelings of hurt and rejection became all too common. slowly and unexpectingly, that sweet innocent joy i filled my heart with vaporized over the years.

when i think of love, i hardly ever think of happiness, contentment or fulfillment. these feelings were replaced with anxiety, insecurity and uncertainty. i stopped feeling happy about love, or the idea of love. instead i worry constantly about whether the other party appreciates what i'm doing. so i decided i might as well freeze my heart and be an ice queen. it is what i have been for so long that when someone comes along and manages to melt that stoned cold heart of mine, i become all too eager to please. perhaps the adrealine rush excites me.. perhaps it is the feeling of new hope that does. but then i worry that i'm too pushy and that i would make mistakes, and the worrying just won't stop. i'd be wondering what he'd think of me, i'd be wondering whether i'm doing the right thing, i'd be wondering why i'm wondering so much when i really don't have to. i feel reluctant about being direct but yet, i yearn so much to know the truth. and yes, i worry that the truth wouldn't be easy to swallow.

if you made my heart melt, but you let it freeze again, i'm sorry to say that it'd would take much more than just a fire to warm up the ice queen. sad as it seems.. she doesn't want to be an ice queen. all she wants is to love.. and to be loved in return. i just want you to hold my hand and walk with me side by side because that's all i really need.
12:15 AM

Thursday, March 02, 2006
speechless.

it was my first time..
i sat on a bike (as in motorbike) today.
wow.

thanks to J.C. :)
1:48 AM

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