though my body is yearning for some serious rest, i am nonetheless determined to update my blog.

i'm sure many of you have heard of the website wholivesnearyou, some might even have a membership with the site. i've always known about this website but i never really bothered to join it even though my friends have bombarded my email with tons of "please join" messages. then came one fine day when i finally decided to join out of sheer boredom and curiousity. i never knew people in the neighbourhood actually bothered to meet up! bless them. my decision paid off because i made new friends (really nice people) and it actually warmed my heart knowing the peeps in my neighbourhood come together like one whole big family.

the events of the past week made me realize that life could take a turn down the path of destruction and sadness when you least expect it. perhaps i hoped for too much because i was so sure that it would work out. and perhaps i jumped right into it because i felt less jaded just for awhile. i hate to have to contemplate every so often because it really does take a toll on my already weak emotional and mental strength. more importantly, i haven't quite figured out what would bring me contentment at the moment and it is rather frustrating. i wish i didn't have to answer to anyone but myself. i'm so tired of having to live up to the expectations of others. i just hope that i will make the right choices in the future because i don't want to make life miserable for anyone. i'm tired from thinking.. but the consequences of walking away will haunt me someday. nevertheless, i'm glad i saw sunlight when i awoke from darkness just that one time.

though my body is yearning for some serious rest, i am nonetheless determined to update my blog.

i'm sure many of you have heard of the website wholivesnearyou, some might even have a membership with the site. i've always known about this website but i never really bothered to join it even though my friends have bombarded my email with tons of "please join" messages. then came one fine day when i finally decided to join out of sheer boredom and curiousity. i never knew people in the neighbourhood actually bothered to meet up! bless them. my decision paid off because i made new friends (really nice people) and it actually warmed my heart knowing the peeps in my neighbourhood come together like one whole big family.

the events of the past week made me realize that life could take a turn down the path of destruction and sadness when you least expect it. perhaps i hoped for too much because i was so sure that it would work out. and perhaps i jumped right into it because i felt less jaded just for awhile. i hate to have to contemplate every so often because it really does take a toll on my already weak emotional and mental strength. more importantly, i haven't quite figured out what would bring me contentment at the moment and it is rather frustrating. i wish i didn't have to answer to anyone but myself. i'm so tired of having to live up to the expectations of others. i just hope that i will make the right choices in the future because i don't want to make life miserable for anyone. i'm tired from thinking.. but the consequences of walking away will haunt me someday. nevertheless, i'm glad i saw sunlight when i awoke from darkness just that one time.